Oh Yea,,

My surgeon gave me a cd with my xays and stuff after surgery. I have a plate and 3 long screws on the outside of my femur pain. And he literally cut my femur IN HALF! right under the ball, you can see the line where it was completely cut off. No wonder I hurt so bad! I'm going to try and find a way to save the pic to my comp so I can post it..

Home Sweet Home

It was great to be able to sleep in my own bed last night. The only bad thing was it was really hard to find a position to be comfortable in. The hospital bed I was able to move the back part up but in my bed I lay completely flat on my back. My leg isn't suppose to turn inward so my heel was really hurting! I know it sounds wierd. I woke up a lot because I was in a lot of pain because I don't have someone waking me up with pain meds anymore. I came down to the couch pretty early because Bryce had a meeting for an hour this morning and I wouldn't be able to get down the stairs by myself. PT taught me how to go down the stairs with one crutch, but I get sooo tired about halfway down. I know some of you are thinking this has disaster written all over it with my history of clumsiness! When I got down the stairs I got really hot and felt like I was going to get sick :( I feel asleep on the couch for a few hours.

Im really uncomfortable and the pain is pretty bad. My leg spams and jerks sporatically and it hurts when it happens because it makes my leg jump up. They said this is normal though since they had all my muscles spread apart for 6 hours during the surgery. I guess it makes since!

A rough, strange home nurse came to my house this morning to take my blood so they can check these levels to make sure I don't get a blood clot. She was really wierd and couldn't even get any blood drawn. She stuck me twice! So she is going to come back tomorrow I guess......

Now I'm just going to try to sleep so I can forget about the pain! I'm still really sleepy and this is pretty much what my day consist of... dosing off in a medicated coma!

Recovery Day 4

Yesterday went okay. I got good sleep the night before and was excited to go home! The nurses would rather me stay longer but I can do everything at home I am doing here, just a different place! And I get to be with Bella which will make my recovery better.. I felt really sick though and got really lightheaded during PT/OT. I got to leave with my Dad and step mom around 2 oclock. The drive home was interesting! My dad borrowed a van from his brother and took out all the back seats. They put a pool loungue chair back there with a thick pad and blankets and I layed on that the whole way home. We called it the "Redneck Ambulance" haha- it was really funny! ALthough the roads aren't so smooth going out of Chicago and I got really sick on the ride home, good thing we took that puke bucket with us!

Bella was so happy to see me!! When they opened the van door she was so excited and kept saying MamaMamaMama!! She climbed inside and crawled onto my chest and nuzzled in with her head on my shoulder and starter sucking her thumb. When my dad was trying to pick her up so I could go out she would throw herself away from him and cling to me for dear life. <3 It was super cute! We snuggled last night in bed together :-) Just what Ive been wanting!

Recovery Day 3

Today started out rough, but it ended really well! They took me off my IV pain meds this morning (the diludad), and they replaced it with another oral pain med I can't prounce. I am still on the norco and I switch between them every 2 hours. This helps but its not as great as the IV pain meds so I can really feel how sore I am now. I had PT twice today, the first time was hard but the second time was better. She isolated and stretched a lot of my muscles which was actually really nice (and gave me a foot rub!). My knee was flexed up and it was really hurting but she got it to lay flat now so that feels better.

I haven't eaten much today, the food is really horrible and I start to feel sick - but I'm getting the food down that I can! Bryce left today at around 1ish.. so its just me but its been nice to just relax alone. My dad is coming tomorrow and he will be taking me home!

I miss Bella soo much! She was really excited to see Bryce today, she did her happy/excited dance (she stands in one spot and hops from foot to foot) and sqealed! She has been a good girl while we've been here. She kisses my picture goodnight every night! Bryce called (he left today around 1) and said that Bella has been walking around the house saying Mama?! looking for me. I am so excited to see her tomorrow I can barely wait!

Anyway, I am actually going to be stay at our house the whole time. Bryce can stay home with me this entire week and I think by next week Ill be fine to stay by myself during the day. Bryce doesn't work too long during the day and a home nurse and home PT will be there throughout the week, also.

So- right now I'm watching Mean Girls in the hospital, its the only thing on. Hopefully Illg et some sleep tonight with the pain med change. Wish me luck!

Day 2 recovery

Today was a really tough day, definitely my hardest. My epeidural came out, along with my catheter and drains around my incision. The epi wore off really quickly and I happened to be working with PT (Doing what I could without crying). I had the pleasure of using my "bedside commode" for the first time this morning since I didn't have my catheter anymore. This was horrible, I couldn't exactly bend my body to that point just yet and trying to get out of bed to it was a whole nother story. I had a crying attack after this from pain and just being overwhelmed. I couldn't stop cying! Then they had to start giving me the shots in my stomach so I don't clot. Those are great either. They wanted me to sit in a chair next to my bed, another extremely uncomfortable position which led to another cry fest. About 3 hours after this, I started puking so now they have Zofran pumping through my IV.

So yea, its just been a really hard day. I am praying tomorrow will be better.. I need the break! Although I have PT twice tomorrow :(

I'd write more but I'm just really not feeling up to it. Just wanted to give you all a quick update

Recovery Day 1

I am writing this the day after, so my recollection may be a little groggy. I didn't get hardly any sleep the first night. It was hard trying to adjust in my own room, and it seemed once I would fall asleep they'd be walking in ready to take vitals. They almost did a 2nd blood transfusion, my BP was around 87/35 half the day. It started to move up into the 40's though so they just monitored it and were okay with 40. zI still had the epidural in so I was completely numb throughout my right leg. My pain regimen was difficult to figure out, also. Nothing was helping much - right now we are doing 1 mg of dilaudad every hour and 2 10 mg norco every 4. Yesterday I spent a lot of the day just sleeping..

Done with surgery..

Surgery yesterday went well. It took longer than expected though, about 6 hours. He cut my femur in half (the osteotomy), did some osteoplasty, and repaired my hip capsule which in his words was "Shot to hell". It was mostly scar tissue so a lot of the time was spent trying to find good tissue. I know have a plate and three pretty big screws. They had to do a blood transfusion yesterday after my surgery but used my own blood that I lost.. they just sent it through this machine that cleans it and stuff. I almost had another one last night bc my blood pressure is so low.. we are trying to get that brought up! Since last night it has been about 87/35.. they just took my bloood to check my hemoglobin and hematocrit to make sure that I still have enough.

Pain is being controlled fairly well.. I still have the epidural in so that has my leg completely numb. They are taking this out today though so I'm sure its going to get rough. Im just so itchy with it in, I get the same way with morphine so they are going to get me diludad instead.

Good news is they did everything through my old scar! They had to extend it a few inches but thats okay, I'm just glad I don't have two scars now - they thought they were going to need to go through the top of my leg.

Therapy is coming today and they are going to have me start to move around the room a little.. it will be nice to get out of bed but I'm worried its going to be painful!

Oh yea, my throat is terrbile sore bc I was incubated for 6 hours. And my mouth has never been so dry in my entire life. I have literally drank 5 pitchers of water and its STILL dry!

An added bonus to all this.. every one of my doctors/surgeons is GORGEOUS! My mom and I were joking around, its like a petting zoo around here. I don't know how I managed to get hot guys to help me but I'm liking it! Ha I'm sure Bryce is too :-), Don't worry Brycearoni.. I'd still have you my love than anyone else, but I'm just enjoying being gaga.. hahaha

Welp, I'm about to pass out.. just wanted to update everyone. Pray that I don't need another blood transfusion and hopefully we can get my BP past 87/35!

Lov everyone, thanks for the prayers and support it means soo much to me.