Update :-D

Hello.......! Its been a few days since my last entry :-) I've been busy, tired, and busy so about the time I think about writing its the last thing on my mind. However, I thought I take a time-out from work and re-charge my batteries! That being said, yes, I started back at work this week. (From home, duh!) Its going well here, I don't know about there! I had plenty of work saved up to do - which is good but overwhelming. I'm getting there piece by piece, chunk by chunk! Its nice to have sometime to do throughout the day though. No complaints, besides my laptop causing some pain by sitting on my lap the whole time... there really isn't a comfortable way to do this! Oh well!

Pain control is still great :) I'm only taking pills to get me through the night, thats the most uncomfortable time. I mean I am still uncomfortable throughout the day and can defnitely feel it, I'd just rather not take the pills ya know? I'll just rough through it. I'm slowly but surely finding ways to stay incorporated in Bella's care, so she doesn't forget that she has a Mama! Oh she is SUCH a daddy's girl now :( She planned a mutiny and totally has a new captain now. I'm more or less like someone who you put in the bottom of the ship, and forget about! She wants Dada, all the time! Ugh! Is this how Bryce felt when I was the center of Bella's world? I am devising plans to when I am mobile again how I am going to take my position back.....! It makes me sad :( But anyway as I was saying I am able to actually get up a little bit more now. So Bryce helps me down to the stool next to her bath tub so I can bathe her now. (I know, my docs probably wouldn't like this, but I think I'm okay). We moved her highchair in the living room when she eats so we can eat together :-) And I lotion her after her baths and stuff. Thats about it. But atleast its something!!! <3

I've started to get a bit blah lately. Its just so hard not being able to do things for yourself, I can't stand it. Theres only so much tv you can watch, gossip magazines you can read... Lifetime movies to get pulled in to... Its so hard just not being able to move easily and go outside and do things. So I guess in a sense its kind of depressing? But lets see I have........... about 8 more weeks till I'm back at work? That will be nice because it means I can actually MOVE, and DRIVE! If it were my left leg it wouldn't be as big of an issue. But getting all that strength back in my leg is proving hard.. that being said...

PT Pain sessions with Bob Golic, aka Saved by the Bell College years RA (minus 100 pounds) - are going well! He was here again yesterday. Same stuff... this time I wasn't AS sore, probably because I was still sore from Monday! But I'm doing the stuff I can on my own at home so I can get a head start, atleast I think I am! Hes really nice and a good physical therapist. I have a doctors appointment with my surgeon here tomorrow at 11:30. My surgeon who did my first two surgeries is taking over my care from here on out so I don't have to go all the way to Chicago for follow-ups. THANK YOU! Hopefully that goes well!!

Oh yea, two days ago my crutch slipped out and I caught myself on... yup.. my bad leg! Ouchee, it hurt oh so bad. I'm sure a few not so great words slipped out, good thing I was home by myself! Ever since my leg has been hurting where they cut my femur in half, lol. So I'm hoping I didn't bend any screws or plates or anything... but Bryce assured me this would be hard to do! Regardless, they are doing x-rays tomorow so we'll see. I doubt it, but holy moly did that hurt!!

And I'm SOOO excited for this weekend!!! It will be the first time I've gotten out of the house! Tomorrow night we are going to Bryce's parents to stay the weekend. Saturday is my Dads 50th birthday and he has a nice inground pool, so we are having our annual "Bruce-a-palooza" pool party! My family does it every year. Theres a ton of us there seeing as my grandma has babies like rabbits - 10 kids.. (8 now) who all are married and have kids.. grandkids have kids.. I have 28 cousins on my dads side I think? Now I'm the oldest girl with only 4 older boy cousins - the rest of them are really small, like babies, toddlers, obnoxious 5 and 6 year olds :) LOL. Its so much fun though, wouldn't trade it for anything. I just think its funny that I have a child older than my Uncle Jimmy's, ha! And then Sunday we are going to church there and going to the Apple's for their memorial day pool party! Monday I can relax :-) SO I just plan on laying out really. I'm hoping my doc says tomorrow I can atleast swim, but as of now I still can't get my incision wet. Hopefully its all good though so I can jump in! Well not jump in, you know what I mean.. sit there on a step? Its still something!

I know I won't look so attractive in a bikini with a 15 inch fresh scar that still has steri-strips, and still kinda scabbed (lovely i know) - but I don't care! I'm just excited to finally get outside! I'll try and take it easy.

:-)